Dear 40 year old Wendy,
It took a while for you to get this way... it will take you awhile to get back to where you need to be. You are a confident pretty person trapped inside a big ball of self depreciating humor wrapped up like a pig in a blanket. Make the outside match. Be a runner. Be an athlete. Be what you should be. You made some positive changes in April. Don't slip. Don't screw up. Be strong.
Started the Lose it! app with Scott--- worked out, did 25 minutes on the ARC trainer, did Week 1 Day 1 of C25K.... You WILL do this. If you won't do it for Scott or yourself, do it for your kids.